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Missing You!

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On this day 4 years ago at 6:32pm, I sat next to my dad’s hospital bed as he took his last breath.  It was a surreal moment…something that will never leave my mind.  I was in complete shock, as I never expected that to happen.  I will never get over that moment.  It’s something that I relive in my head all of the time.  And after 4 years, I  still haven’t really grieved.  I think I just keep it bottled up in me.  It’s almost as if I’m in denial and don’t want to face the obvious reality. 

There are literally times where I wonder if he’s really gone.  He literally did not look like himself when he passed.  According to the funeral home, we had to do a close casket because he didn’t look  good enough for a viewing.  So I’m literally driving myself crazy with all these thoughts in my head.  I know my dad would want me to move on and be happy, but how can I fully be happy when a big piece of my heart is missing???  Grief is a beast…

And P.S. I know I said literally so many times.  My dad use to tease me about that.  I literally said it all the time.  Lol.

There was a leak in our main bathroom a couple of weeks ago and we had to call a plumber.  The first thing I said to my brother was that our dad would have been able to detect the leak and fix it himself.  My dad was the go to for everything in my life.  Anything that went wrong with my house or car, he was the first person I would call.  I would not make a major purchase without getting his advice first.  Anyway…

They say everything happens for a reason.  I’m still trying to figure this one out. 

Love you daddy.  I literally miss you every single day.  Not a day goes by that you’re not on my mind.

My Fur Baby, Wally 🐕

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Let me tell you about my Fur baby, Wally.  My husband, whom I met in 2021 (a story for another day), had a beautiful chocolate Labrador.  Wally was his baby, as he had Wally when he was 5 weeks old.  I’ve seen photos and Wally was the cutest puppy.

I was always scared of dogs. When I started dating my now husband, I felt I was in a dilemma.  I didn’t want to go to his home because I knew he had a dog.  When we became serious, I told him he had to make a choice between me and his dog.  He couldn’t make a decision and asked me not to make him choose.  I could tell this dog meant a lot to him, so I asked to meet Wally.  I told him to bring Wally to my house so I can meet him in person. 

First dinner with Wally

Needless to say, I became obsessed with Wally.  I immediately became his dog momma!  I loved that dog so much.  People would tell my husband that I love Wally more than I did him.

I could go on and on about this special dog.  For now I just want to say…

Happy birthday in rainbow heaven to my yoga partner, breakfast buddy and protector.  If you ever had or have a dog that you are close to…then you know.

They are super loyal, lovable  and will always be by your side.  I could count on Wally to get up at 6:30am and lay at the end of the hallway every morning waiting for me.  That was our bonding time.  And when I would go into the office, he knew on those days to get up at 5:30.

There will never be another Wally.  Unique and one-of-a-kind…the best dog ever ❤️