Hey my friends!
I am back after taking a very long break from blogging. I’ve been wanting to share updates for awhile now, but as they say…Life happens
After unexpectedly losing my dad last year, a big piece of my heart has been missing. This was definitely something I was not prepared for or could ever imagine happening. It’s been and still is a difficult time for me and my family. The one thing I know about my dad is that he would not want us to not move on with life. He would want us to live our lives and not stay locked up in a shell. I miss my dad more than anyone could imagine. I at times feel guilty being happy. Those of you that has suffered the loss of a loved one knows exactly what I mean.
My first post after a year is not meant to be a sad one, especially when I know my dad is looking down over me happy. I’m sure from the featured photo you know why I write that my dad is happy for me. I am engaged!!! Yes…I am getting married.
When I tell people how my fiancé and I met, they first say that my dad sent him to me and secondly, we have a beautiful love story. I definitely believe that as well.
When and How did We get Engaged?
It was February 12, 2022 and we planned on celebrating Valentine’s day that Saturday because my fiancé had to work on the 14th. I told him that I wanted to plan our Valentine’s dinner since he’s always the one setting up romantic events for us. He agreed, but said we’re going to do this prom style.
So back story, I told him that I never had the chance to go to my prom. Another story for another day. He spent his high school years in France and they don’t have proms. So naturally I thought it was an excellent idea. Now back to the proposal night…
He came to my parents house to pick me up with a beautiful corsage. You know what’s funny…my mom said to us wow you guys look nice, you better not run off and elope.
We went to the restaurant, which by the way was a big disappointment. Not at all the ambiance they potrayed on their website. Nonetheless we made the best of it. We were enjoying one another’s company, so that was all that really mattered.
We went back to my house and he immediately gave me a tiara, as I was the prom Queen. He then sent me to my room to set up the music for the prom in my office. He told me to wait 5 minutes, then I will be able to come out. Me being who I am, I waited probably 10 minutes fixing my lipstick and taking selfies.
I finally opened my bedroom door and there were candles and rose petals down the hallway leading to the office. I knocked on the door and no response. I knocked again and no response. This time I opened the door and he was standing there with my favorite music artist, Brian McKnight playing in the background with the room filled with candles and rose petals. He starts telling me how he feels about me and the impact I’ve made in his life. Then all of a sudden he gets on his knees and my big eyes became the widest it has ever been since I was born.
And there you have it…my proposal story. It was a surprise. I didn’t expect to get engaged yet, but am very excited and happy to have found love when I wasn’t looking.
Now that it’s less than 6 months until the wedding, I am going to blog all the details about our wedding. For a long time I was made to feel bad for getting engaged less than 4 months after my dad’s passing. I was made to feel as if I was being selfish and was only getting engaged because I was mourning. A time in my life that should be exciting was portrayed as disrespecting my dad. They don’t understand that I already felt guilty finding love and happiness. By saying these things, it took away that excitement and due to that all the things a woman would rush to do, I procrastinated because I didn’t want to be that selfish woman. But I’ve come to realize that no I’m not being selfish. It’s actually selfish to make me feel bad for wanting to move on with life. It’s already difficult knowing he will not walk me down the aisle or have a father/daughter dance. I will not crawl in a shell and not share with the world my happiness. I do this because in my heart and knowing the man my dad was, he would be happy for me. In fact, my dad would say it’s about time you’re getting married. And it’s a bonus that my dad would have absolutely liked having him as a son-in-law. They have lots of things in common…
Anyway my friends…until next time ❤️